[转贴]写给初恋女友的最后一封信

陈浩南

My Last Letter to First Love

By Bobpop,2001

I don't know whether I am right.But I think there may exist too many rulers
for the judging of right and wrong.Someone thought me like this, some
others thought me like that.So,sometime I nearly considered myself nothing
but a mirror.Of course the mirror is not completely smooth. In fact, long
long ago, I have taken myself as a wanderer forever. Wanderer Forever, what
a beautiful, musical name! But sometime I can't bear that feeling, just
can't bear it any longer!

So I want to anchor in a harbor.Once I wrote,even the devil can be my
lover,but...

There ever exists two things I can exchange with my life.Yes,you will get
them.They are love and science.I didn't know which is the most valuable to
me. But one thing I can make sure,I can't live without either of them.

Once upon a time,I preferred science，and that was a very tragic story .
I ever thought I could survived everything except the death itself. But
then, I suspected it's my doomed day.Yes,it's the turning of everything.But
fortunately, I outlived that, thanks to Don and Chang.In my suffering days,
I wanna put everything into science：my despair,my pains,my dignity,my
genius, just everything, everything, ...

Time passed by. Persons changed some way. I observed ，I thought, I
concluded, I created, I progressed, maybe evolved.

I felt no shame for what I have done. If the time turned back, I would do
exactly the same as before. That is to be me. Yes, I loved a girl. Love is
sth. very very complicated. There are so many articles about love. Maybe
only love can be eternal. That girl is my first and sole love.I talked many
things with her. But I hurt her too seriously. I changed, she changed, and
we all changed. Now I became a playboy.

Yes, a playboy. Everyone thought me as a playboy. I have experienced a
serious and thoughtful love. What can I ask for? Being a playboy is very
well. But the best is becoming the knight of that girl. I tried, I bleed, I
risked...In all my best, I want to be the knight.

But I now feel some tired,so I write here and now. Everyone have some
thoughts about playboy.I just played everything.In the past,I took sth.
too seriously,too heavily.That have got beyond my bearing. So,I decided
to be a playboy.And then I was enjoying my life.I am a goddamned
genius.Now,I can make life as arts.Once upon a time,I want to be a great
physicist just like Albert Einstein.But during the time I learned physics
and mathematics,I found both them are too hard for me. So hard,so hard...
And then I got so disappointed at myself.Meanwhile I have fallen in love
with a girl. As a result,I made a decision---choose the science.I may feel
sorry for that decision all my life.So,given that shit decision,I am
completely deserved what I have suffered consequently.I hated the normal,I
hated to be the same as others.In fact,I have achieved the admission to
Hell,and so I was pressed to take a travel to the Inferno.
After Inferno's baptism,I became another man.More detailed,the time
before,I am a boy,and later ,a man. A playboy is no longer a boy but a
man,and a happy man.At least,playboys pretended to be merry suceessfully.

That girl would become my anguish all my life.The love is eternal,so the
anguish will.But,my god,I cry for your pity.My lord,my love,if any
possibility exists,I will reconstruct that love with that girl at any
cost,at all costs. Whatever it takes from me,I will.Now I have got out of
the dilemma of science.And now I know the true value of love.And now,the
science no longer be the tiger in the way. And now........................

陈浩南

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陈浩南

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